Healing the Heart
Healing is remembering the light already within
“Every symptom is a conversation. We are not made wrong - we’re not broken, not missing anything. Every so-called problem of the body is a portal.” Darren Weismann
🌿 From Arrhythmia to Alignment: A Heart-Led Reflection on Healing
In November 2023, my heart began whispering—or perhaps more accurately, it was ringing an alarm I could not ignore. This was sudden, not a gradual progression.
I began experiencing thousands of premature beats or contractions accompanied by a cough, which are said to be coming from abnormal electrical signals in the top or bottom chambers of the heart. I seemed to have it in both the top and the bottom or maybe one was triggering the other. Standard medical testing came back inconclusive.. But I knew: this was not normal. And… I was not going to ignore the message my body was sending.
As my oldest son (and my mom and an aunt) also have heart challenges and there are other similar issues such as stroke in our family history (although different situations than me) I wanted an understanding of this beyond my specific issue, finding ways to shift that could be carried forward, influence this trend in the family.
🫀 The Listening Begins
Seven months later, a 24-hour Holter monitor confirmed over 21,000 premature beats per day. The doctor suggested removing coffee and checking back in a month. I was only drinking one cup daily—but I released it, not from fear, but from reverence so I could better tune into my body (especially since stimulants like coffee can sometimes exacerbate a heart issue or even mask or stifle the body’s signals). I love the ritual, taste and smell of coffee but I don’t need it for energy. And something deeper was asking to shift.
Around the same time, I felt called to reduce water intake as that also seemed to be contributing, as I observed times the beats were more noticeable. Intuitively, I knew my body was asking not necessarily for more of anything, but for greater harmony and balance. We’re often taught that drinking eight glasses of water a day is the gold standard—but I’ve come to question that … water can flush out, not just toxins and garbage, but also essential minerals that our body and heart need to function properly. Balance in all things. And each of us is unique, and we are not even the same day to day, which means it is key to listen to our body. Although I do not drink alcohol very often, except when I gather with family or go out for a meal or event with a friend. But since that can also have an effect, I mostly eliminated it, particularly wine. This was not particularly hard for me as it’s never been a significant factor in my life.
It also inspired changes to a few other things to help address the sleep challenges that began years ago when my then-husband was going through his cancer experience. (That is no small experience for a person and their loved ones. And at that time I did not have nearly the resources and ‘lenses’ to view it through that I do now.). The arrhythmia was definitely not improving my ability for rest so I made a much greater effort to clear out all I was using to help with sleep and find a way to get back to my true nature - where I can sleep deeply and restfully. I paid closer attention to when the symptoms seemed more evident, tested, and practiced patience (as best I could) when something seemed to work, then didn’t.
The heart symptoms did seem to ease—but hadn’t disappeared. Another Holter monitor was ordered to check if there was improvement after stopping coffee.
Still a problem and this time, I was given a preliminary diagnosis. The doctor referred me to a heart specialist and with an idea of the ‘diagnosis’ I was able to also view the diagnosis and symptoms through multiple lenses…
🔍 Medicine, Energy, Emotion: All Perspectives Welcome
I leaned more into the multidimensional view I hold in my work: everything is connected. Through the German New Medicine lens, the diagnosis pointed to an “overwhelmed conflict brought on by negative stress overload at work”—particularly related to people, not the work itself or clients.
That resonated deeply.
I had already begun shifting out of dynamics that didn’t fit me as an entrepreneur, beginning in spring 2023, but this insight brought more clarity. I began looking at every aspect of my life as data: where was I holding too much? Where had I allowed obligation or over-efforting to override the rhythm of presence? What dissonance was there in my beliefs tied to where I ‘should’ be and what it ‘should’ look like based on others views and perspectives (perceived or real).
And from November to March there was an increase in client work, which meant an increase in time spent in group sound healing and the vibrations of my instruments, lots of time in (EES) with the scalar waves at Solaterra, and of course, one-on-one client work. I, of course, tuned my field periodically with Biofield Tuning specifically around the issues related to i.t, as well. In January 2025, I signed up for vocal coaching and deepening my own sound healing practice with my voice, and brought that into my group events. Through the winter, my business became stronger and more supportive—subtly reshaping itself and I did too. It’s amazing how awareness of the messages of our body’s ‘symptoms’ help us shift in our life. To be clear, this is a work in progress and ongoing.
Scalar waves at Solaterra, delivering more sound healing events in the past 6 months, and using / developing my own voice and using it for healing January to June in vocal coaching classes, as well as many other things like diet, nature, connection, deep rest and exercise have all been helpful in the healing process for me. And I was inspired by Diane Arkenstone who shares in her bio on Spotify (in the About write up) how she healed her heart - very different issue than mine. But it says she “found healing through the vibrations of her guitar and her voice, and this started her journey to make healing music to help others.”
💡 Healing Through Field, Not Force
Six months passed - until I was able to get in for the echocardiogram (late May 2025) —on what would have been my late son’s 39th birthday. A meaningful moment in many layers. I had told the EKG technician that I felt it was healed and… so it is.
In that six months time I was able to heal—the premature beats, cough and deeper arrhythmia were mostly gone. Sleep is great now - get to sleep easily, deep rest, dreaming, and feel much greater sense of being rested - and I even have a short afternoon nap occasionally again. My results came back ‘normal’. And to be sure, I recognize as I read through the detailed language of my results, and as I continue to experience my business that there’s things I need to continue to tend and nurture and release. This is not about perfection, this is about an opportunity to expand, balance, harmonize, and roll with whatever it is I, as a greater soul, am here to experience. Messages from my body are always a great barometer, and course corrector. And my business - this opportunity I have to do work I love, with clients who inspire me - is also a catalyst for moments to rise like the phoenix, to go through metamorphosis, to be alchemically refined.
My body had responded to new choices, new boundaries, and the vibrational tuning I know and trust. I was healed by medicine—the medicine of returning to resonance and trust. This is a daily choice, not once and done… This is daily tuning-in—a moment-by-moment practice of trust in my own guidance. It’s a practice not a perfection. Currently I am deepening my joy through exploring some new ways of tuning in. More exciting things to come….
💼 Entrepreneurship as Alchemy
This heart experience also revealed deeper patterns I was holding around success. Having come from over 30 years in the corporate world, my brain was still wired to equate stability with external measures, and worth with productivity. If all experiences and relationships serve to return us to our true self, then this is an ever unfolding story, a continuous alchemical process of refining ….and refining some more. And our lives - in all their complexities are the refining, alchemical process of continuous transformation.
And sometimes, because of this work that I am called to do, I feel like my personal experiences with health (mine or loved ones) help me deeply relate and hold the container for others to heal. It’s not required, of course, but I am here the same as everyone else having the human experience, having experiences to expand me out of my own limitations. Having at least some experiences as practitioners, calls us much deeper into the exploration of solutions for health. Enabling not only exploration into ways and lenses to help solve issues, but also the empathy and capacity to witness or understand that sometimes it’s less about ‘solving’ the ‘dis-ease’ as it is about the process itself and why it is in our lives - the greater work that the challenge is doing in our lives.
In part what I needed in my work as a ‘solo entrepreneur’ was colleagues, a chance to brainstorm and work together with others - there’s a reason why isolation is one of the worst ‘punishments’ in prison. It so happened that around the same time of the discovery of the diagnosis and its GNM meaning that a fellow practitioner shared a resource with me for entrepreneurs that gives me support on the business side of things - this has helped me a lot, and even having a couple gatherings with colleagues to work and share tips on time savers or technical knowledge, I found to be greatly helpful and productive, especially in breaking through a couple tech challenges that had previously stalled me.
Marketing is an interesting dynamic. If I take this blog, or my emails, for example - they are very important ways for me to express, to share and connect others with resources. This is something that has always been who I am - connecting people to resources, support, other people, sharing ideas or inspiration. I love building community, being part of a community, inspiring and being inspired…. I am a connector, a ‘bridge builder’. This is what my business allows me to do and what the ‘need’ for marketing pushes me to do. I have always done this easily in my close community. But it took me until the spring of 2023 to recognize how this was appreciated and could be shared beyond those close to me. It’s easy for me to write blogs and newsletters when I perceive it, recognize it as simply sharing good things with my friends… because I am and you are.
In August 2025, it will be 3 years of being in business here in Penticton. As I navigate entrepreneurship in the Okanagan Valley, I’m unlearning a great deal: uncoupling money from success / value, uncoupling visibility from defining impact (oh the social media illusion), that growth must always be upward (can I also enjoy the ease of a plateau once in a while). And, ultimately, staying open to where I’m being guided. Can I release my plans and allow potentially something greater to express than I could have imagined?
What if the spiral isn’t linear?
What if every contraction is also a sacred pulse?
What if success is resonance with your own field, even when the outer picture is still taking form?
🌺 An Invitation to Reflect
If you are feeling out of rhythm—whether in health, business, relationship, or life—perhaps this can be a mirror:
Where am I pushing when I need to pause?
Where am I holding more than my field can sustainably carry?
What rhythms in me are calling to be re-tuned?
Let your body be your teacher. Let your breath be your barometer. You are not broken—you are becoming more resonant.
With love, trust, and ever-deepening attunement,
NB: This is simply my experience shared from my view and is not intended to treat, diagnose, cure or prevent any disease; but rather as an inspiration to look at whatever your specific experiences are multidimensionally, from multiple lenses and draw on resources from varying view points - ultimately guided by your intuition on what is best for you.