Healing the Heart
Healing is remembering the light already within
🌿 From Arrhythmia to Alignment: A Heart-Led Reflection on Healing
In November 2023, my heart began whispering—or perhaps more accurately, it was ringing an alarm I could not ignore. This was sudden, not a gradual progression.
I began experiencing thousands of premature ectopic beats and an arrhythmia —accompanied by a cough. I went to the doctor for a medical check early December, standard testing came back inconclusive.. But I knew: this was not normal. And… I was not going to ignore the message my body was sending.
As my oldest son (and my mom and my aunt) also have heart challenges (although different situations than me) I wanted an understanding of this beyond my specific issue, finding ways to shift that could be carried forward, influence this trend in the family.
🫀 The Listening Begins
Seven months later, a 24-hour Holter monitor confirmed over 21,000 premature beats per day. The doctor suggested removing coffee and checking back in a month. I was only drinking one cup daily—but I released it, not from fear, but from reverence so I could better tune into my body (especially since stimulants like coffee can sometimes mask or stifle its signals). I love the ritual, taste and smell of coffee but I don’t need it for energy. And something deeper was asking to shift.
Around the same time, I reduced what had been more water intake than needed. Intuitively, I knew my body was asking not necessarily for more of anything, but for greater harmony. We’re often taught that drinking eight glasses of water a day is the gold standard—but I’ve come to question that … water can flush out, not just toxins and garbage, but also essential minerals that our body and heart need to function properly. Balance in all things. And each of us is unique, within we are not even the same day to day, which means it is key to listen to our body.
And I changed a few other things in my diet to help address the sleep challenges that began back when my then-husband was going through his cancer experience. (That is no small experience for a person and their loved ones). Arrhythmia was definitely impacting my ability for rest. I paid closer attention to when the symptoms seemed more evident, tested, and practiced patience (as best I could) when something seemed to work, then didn’t.. The heart symptoms did seem to ease—but hadn’t disappeared. Another Holter monitor was ordered to check after stopping coffee.
Still a problem and this time, I was given a preliminary diagnosis. The doctor referred me to a heart specialist and with an idea of the ‘diagnosis’ I was able to also view the diagnosis and symptoms through multiple lenses…
🔍 Medicine, Energy, Emotion: All Perspectives Welcome
I leaned into the multidimensional view I hold in my work: everything is connected. Through the German New Medicine lens, the diagnosis pointed to an “overwhelmed conflict brought on by negative stress overload at work”—particularly related to people, not the work itself or clients.
That landed deeply.
I had already begun shifting out of old dynamics beginning in spring 2023, but this insight brought more clarity. I began looking at every aspect of my life as data: where was I holding too much? Where had I allowed obligation or over-efforting to override the rhythm of presence? What dissonance was there in my beliefs tied to where I ‘should’ be and what it ‘should’ look like based on others views and perspectives (perceived or real).
And from November to March there was an increase in client work, which meant an increase in time spent in group sound healing, scalar waves at Solaterra, one-on-one client work. And I was also called to add vocal coaching and deepening my own sound healing practice with my voice, and many other things such as diet, supplements, community, etc. Through the winter, my business subtly became stronger and more supportive—subtly reshaping itself and I did too. It’s amazing how awareness of the messages of our body’s ‘symptoms’ help us shift in our life. To be clear, this is a work in progress and ongoing.
Scalar waves at Solaterra, delivering more sound healing events in the past 6 months, and using / developing my own voice and using it for healing January to June in vocal coaching classes, as well as many other things like diet, nature and exercise have all been helpful in the healing process for me.
💡 Healing Through Field, Not Force
Six months passed - November to May. The echocardiogram was in late May—on what would have been my late son’s 39th birthday. A meaningful moment in many layers. I had told the EKG technician that I felt it was healed and… so it is.
In that six months time I was able to heal—the premature beats were mostly gone. My results came back ‘normal’. And to be sure, I recognize as as I read through the detailed language of my results, and as I continue to experience my business that there’s things I need to continue to tend and nurture and release. This is not about perfection, this is about an opportunity to expand, balance, harmonize, and roll with whatever it is I, as a greater soul, am here to experience. And my business - this opportunity I have to do work I love, with clients who inspire me - is also a catalyst for moments to rise like the phoenix, to go through metamorphosis, to be alchemically refined.
My body had responded to new choices, new boundaries, and the vibrational tuning I know and trust. I was healed by medicine—the medicine of returning to resonance and trust. This is a daily choice, not once and done… This is daily tuning-in—a moment-by-moment practice of trust in my own guidance. It’s a practice not a perfection. Currently I am deepening my joy through exploring some new ways of tuning in. More exciting things to come I am sure….
💼 Entrepreneurship as Alchemy
This heart experience also revealed deeper patterns I was holding around success. Having come from over 30 years in the corporate world, my heart was still wired to equate stability with external measures, and worth with productivity. If all experiences and relationships serve to return us to our true self, then this is an ever unfolding story, a continuous alchemical process of refining ….and refining some more. And our lives - in all their complexities are the refining, alchemical process of continuous transformation.
In part what I needed was colleagues, a chance to brainstorm and work together with others - there’s a reason why isolation is one of the worst ‘punishments’ in prison. It so happened that around the same time of the discovery of the diagnosis and its GNM meaning that a fellow practitioner shared a resource with me for entrepreneurs that gives me support on the business side of things - this has helped me a lot, and even having a couple gatherings with colleagues to work and share tips on time savers or technical knowledge, I found to be greatly helpful and productive, especially in breaking through tech challenges that had previously stalled me.
In August 2025, it will be 3 years of being in business here in Penticton. As I navigate entrepreneurship in the Okanagan Valley, I’m unlearning a great deal: uncoupling money from success / value, uncoupling visibility from defining impact (oh the social media illusion), that growth must always be upward (can I also enjoy the ease of a plateau once in a while). And, ultimately, staying open to where I’m being guided. Can I release my plans and allow potentially something greater to express than I could have imagined?
But what if the spiral isn’t linear?
What if every contraction is also a sacred pulse?
What if success is resonance with your own field, even when the outer picture is still taking form?
🌺 An Invitation to Reflect
If you are feeling out of rhythm—whether in health, business, relationship, or life—perhaps this can be a mirror:
Where am I pushing when I need to pause?
Where am I holding more than my field can sustainably carry?
What rhythms in me are calling to be re-tuned?
Let your body be your teacher. Let your breath be your barometer. You are not broken—you are becoming more resonant.
With love, trust, and ever-deepening attunement,
NB: this is not intended to treat, diagnose, cure or prevent any disease; but rather as an inspiration to look at whatever your specific experiences are multidimensionally, from multiple lenses.